15.3.10

The birds are singing outside as it's 10 to 3 in the morning, despite the timeline on this post. I hate this time. I hate when I can hear the birds singing in the morning coz it means I'm up far too late and it will be a long time before I get to sleep.

Actually, I've come to the conclusion that I hate nigh time. I hate it so much lately because it's the time when I feel so lonesome and the time that I have to think about things, things I really don't want to think about. I hate the night, nothing is so unreassuring.

If you knew what really went on my head, you would be very scared. You wouldn't know what to do. How do I know that? Because, I, myself have no clue what to do. I've no idea how to help myself, so how can anyone else really help me?

I read your stuff, so thoughtful and emotional. You provoke my thoughts, make me think like I used to, make me look at the bigger, underlying picture. You inspire me. Maybe, just maybe, some day, i can be like you.